Monday, October 31, 2011

Open Topic 5: Translation of Japanese song to English

Title: Crying baby Pippo(Nakimushi Pippo)
Music & Lyrics: Sasakure Producer
Singer: Miku Hatsune


I have cried loudly
When I was born to this world
I have cried facing back to the sunset
When I was hurt by words by unhumane friends

I have cried with the clouds
When my hopeless love was finished
I have cried till a morning came
When I realized weakness of people to protect the others

Who doesn't give up even in the rain, nor breezing
That is whom I have wanted to be

What did my crying red eyes saw?
It was one soft drop of tear from you

I will cry instead of you,
so you don't have to cry- just trust me
It's the best I can deal all of your sorrow

Is it a penalty from the God that tears are in this world?
If so, that's an irony, as it's the world who made my crying baby

-I suppose.

I have cried roughly
When I was unjustly accused heavily
I have cried looking up above
When I was betrayed by whom I had trusted

I have cried for a fear
When i was lost in the maze of justice
I have cried with no reason
When I knew what the farewell for ever means

I will cry instead of you,
so you don't have to cry- just trust me
If I could catch all of your sorrow

When there are sorrows as the number of ☆(star)s,
We can deal it by crying as the same times of it
That's why I am crying to make you smile

We shall meet at the horizon, beyond the date lone of sorrow
It will be the time tears are dried

I know actually we are weak although we pretend to be a tough usually
We can cover and shed weakness of our mind by tears which cannot be hidden

I will cry instead of you,
so you don't have to cry- just trust me
If I could catch all of sorrow in the world

Will you share half of your tear with me?
That's why I am crying to share our tears and cry together

I will cry instead of you,
so do not cry, and trust me
You can shed a tear with me when you can't help crying

I suppose tears are to be the link sharing our feelings
That's why I am crying to enable to be with you

-I suppose,
I suppose there is such a meaning.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Open topic 4: Active and Quiet mood to live

As allmost all of people need rests on the weekend, I need relaxing time to be alone.
I am in one of these moods- active or quiet. In the former mood, I am in high spirits and love the stimulates from anything. Spring terms are when I can feel it the most.
On the contrary, I cannot do anything in the quiet mood. It requires enormous energy to care about anything aroung me, even to reply an email or do the tasks. I have been suffered by it often in Autumn terms. This is one of the excuse I 'm absent from classes often. Sorry Marc.

I'm sure I am not good at self management, or controlling myself. However, it is needed to keep in high at least having the any kind of meeting with people. I hope I can be in active mood anytime because I believe it is the best condition of me, but once I got advice that I am unstable and make people around me worry in both of those mood. Thus now I'm wondering how I can behave for me and for the others.

Why don't I have the neutral mood? I suppose it is because I work and try to make it perfect by it reaches the limit, and then stop till the energy's recovered. Particularlyin this year, I am tend to fall into this loop.
I have been told that I always try to deal the problems on my own, including the works I don't have to do. I felt it is easy to solve them by myself than leave them to the others and wait for its finish. I have experienced the disappearence of a chief in my society who had amount of work, with no reason to give it up from the person, so I and one of the other member dealt it. Later I heard the excuse at ameeting with the person, but it was so hard for me as I give one month in summer vacation up for it.

I am unfortunately uncapable for being good leader, no, even a member now, although I am holding a lot of tasks I have never had. I will challenge to be better person to do my tasks and help the others, plus reduce the times I stop and make people around me worry as possible.

Fixed topic: What is happiness to me?

This question seems to connect when my favorite moments are. Briefly I have two patterns of times which makes me happy.

First one is the time when I can enjoy the moment from bottom of my heart. I think active status of my heart is better for me(however I have been told it makes me unstable), and only the time I'm looking forward to what coming the next makes my heart active.
In such a condition, I feel great happiness. With the poetic expression, I feel like dancing, and everything coming into my eyes are fresh and bright. Smile comes out on my face, and the world is seemed to be wonderful!
When I can move, I feel I am in health condition. This is because I'm filled with this happiness!

The other one is almost opposite with the first one. This one is calm and warm like sleeping. Yeah, sleeping is absolutely one of my favorite time, and in addition I have another time when I leave(keep?) myself happy like a sleeping time.
Staying beside my favorite people makes me so, for example a part of my friend(the others make me active!), boyfriend, teachers I truely expected.
When I am alone, I also can be happy coming across to some warm stories. The "story
" is not only in the books. Everything I meet in daily life is story! If I see the generous bus driver cares the customer, I feel I am lucky to be here. When I see beautiful clouds before sunset, I also remember the moment and have a quiet time with it. People to stay with bring me happiness, and also anything around me which is positive to me takes me into happy feeling!

However, what is the happiest is that I have my heart to feel it enough!^^ Of course it is made by your cares, guys. Thank you so much!

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Open topic 4: motief of "cherry blossom"

How do you feel with cherry blossom? What image do you have when you look at it, and look at its petals fall?

I like its color, for example Someiyoshinoソメイヨシノ has soft pink in daytime. I once heard human is able to see the world only in monochrome in the night, and it makes cherry trees much more beautiful. People have enjoyed to watch it as yozakura夜桜, and some customs to enjoy it as an entertainment have been developed. As I know, Japanese people love to see cherry blossoms as I can understand why they do so.
Particularly yozakura fits my favor as I feel the time around the tree stops in both of the moonlight and artificial light. It takes my eyes whenever I find it.
Cherry blossom fascinates us with its beautiful and fragile shape.

However, I learned in one class of Anthropology that Japanese government used cherry blossom as motief of "patriotic Japanese" during wartime. They appealed to people's sense to connect their favorite cherry blossom and the war. Young men who got on Kamikaze plains were told "be brave as scattering cherry's petal when you die!" It must be the final excuse for pilots to give their lives. (Kamikaze plains were one-way plain which attacked the enemies only with one-way fuel. Pilots were sure they could never come back after the ride.) I remember people who saw pilots off prayed with cherry brunchs.
In a newspaper showed in the class, one of the man who was to go as Kamikaze but could avoided it by an accident wrote about cherry blossom. He had lost many friends for the war and Kamikaze, and he remembered the statement from government firmly. Even though many years had passed since the war ended, he could not see cherry blossom without tears as he remembered only sad memories with it.

Those which are attractive are frequently took advantage to controll other people. I do not like wars, so I was disappointed to know cherry blossom was used in such a negative way. I hope no more people come who feel sad when they look at the beautiful tree.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Fixed Topic: my strength and weakness

My strength I suppose are...

・I can think something deeply and constantly.
For example I've thought about myself and behavior so long, and it makes progress little by little. It sometimes means I have stone head to make my policy or position according to my friend. However, it is needed for me to convince me how I should live, and the process I've passed helps me to consider it.

・I can accept others' opinion.
It can be with the first one. When someone tell different opinion with me, I half-automatically think this idea CAN BE. For me, it is easy to accept but difficult to change my stance.

・I can go into the society I've been interested in.
Communities I'm belonged to now are all fascinate to me. Of course at first there were no neighbor for me, but I could find there for myself and continue to relate.


My weakness are...
・Rarely I can have confident to my opinion and even my statement.
It is big problem when I talk with others in both debate and daily conversation. When I talk in academical concent just like I did in ELP, I get agressive and critical enough to convince the others, but in the other time I'm not. So, I need too much time to decide my position, and it frequently has undesirable effect on works.

・ Very lazy in daily life.
As some of you already know, I often overslept and be late for classes. Almost all the cases it is because of assignment, but It's my fault I cannot deal it in my time. I guess I don't controll my own pace. In addition, I love to stay ICU for studying or talking as I can concentrate on something much better than I do the same at home. It results late of my life- leave ICU on 22:00, come back home on 23:30, have dinner for one hour or more.... One of the cause I suppose is that I'm a VERY SLOW EATER.

・Have weak memtal like Tofu豆腐.
I am a kind of chicken as I cannot stay as usual when I have gronp presentation in class, particularly in the class with people I have not talked with as friends. I'm also very shy to talk with people. However, I have words much more on communication through writing than face-to-face communication.


Seen above, I can focus on my weaknesses better with the reasons, but it is the problem I care about them too much.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Open Topic 3: Importance of person who scold you

It is difficult to believe to me, but I have now spent 20 years since I came to this world. So many existence came across to me, particularly I will write about people here, including family or classmates. As I get old, although I have made them angry not a few times, people who "scold" me got fewer and fewer. It is natural that people are expected to have responsibility on their own and controll themselves,
however, I'm still childish in behavior.

For me, someone who gives me advice is precious and important because these people basically make appriciate responce to any kind of questions. Not only I but also anyone talk with them with various topics. That's true person who is good at talking is at the same time good at listening! They help me to consider my problem as they accept to take it seriously, and as I know it I can talk in honest. My boyfriend is the kind of person I have the most conversation in these days.

He is generous to everyone, and he aims to be better person in managing, solving problems, and many other things. I feel I really talk with him, hardly I'm able to feel in recent, sharing many words about anything around us. We've tried to tell anything, everything to talk to the other, and it has helped me so much in mentally. (Actually I've always helped and I don't know whether I can be a help of him or not....)
He requires me not to be so modest as I keep my honest words inside of me. More than before, the words I receive get straight as I guess it is the voice from his heart, but it scarcely hurt me. It takes the form of advice, complaint, question, requirement or other which stimulate me, however what I've the most impressed is scolding. It must be experienced for me since I was a little kid, but to be surprised, it was new and heavy to me. Of course I should not be scold, however, now I realized person who has scolded me has always cared me so much. Once I felt those words just as typical noise, but they are opposite with it!

I'm lucky I have such people who care and help me not to be ashamed when I get into society. In near future I hope I can care or cover them with great thank.

Fixed topic: What is the most precious thing to me?

M: Hey, I got a question saying "What's the most precious thing to you?". How do you answer it?

E: What a simple question to me...as you know, it is definitely LOVE.

M: Love, yeah you talk about it all days long. What in love makes you to think so?

E: You haven't experienced it? When I fall in love, I start to follow it all the
time, no concern I want to or not.
First my heart continue beating so fast as I know I will die when I'm close to it, but gradually it changes from these active feeling to calm but deep feeling.
It changes me so much!!

M: Wait, you've the word IT to explain what you love, but why don't you use SHE?

E: Well, I can fall in love with anything. Needless to say I love my lover as cute kitten, but at the same time I love my family members and cats, or I even love books and biology!
Those "love" is in detail a little bit different each other, but it is all LOVE for me.

M: Hmm, your view to love is acceptable to me, even though I've not been nuts about another person. But it is unstable to love on others because you don't know when it will disappear in front of you, and even you can change your mind!

E: You're fixed the word LOVE for using to love between persons...that's not all of LOVE!!

M: I would rather set more stable thing as my precious thing! What I always have and I can controll...is, I find it! It is HEALTH!!

E: Health! Why did you come to the result?

M: Because it's base of my activity! You know, if you find what you really love, you cannot follow it when you're not health. Why I am here and live is all because I am health as I can talk and move.
If no one is free to care me, I can care about myself to be health. I do any activities to get health body, for instance move, walk, and other!

E: You know love already because you seem to love yourself and your body so much! You have to thank to your parents who gave you this health body and who've cared you.
Remember, you are made from love of who surrounding you!

M: Yeah I will...ok, I do love my health! Is this my lost in discussion?

E: When did we start to debate, there are no winner or loser!

M: But I'm feeling...

E: Hey, I found we can explain our precious things in your word HEALTH.

M: What? I accepted my precious thing HEALTH is included in your precious thing LOVE.
I'm convinced now to your opinion.

E: Think LOVE is good condition of one's heart. I suppose I cannot have sense to feel anything if my mental condition is not HEALTH.

M: That's right in bad condition mentally love makes no sense to you. Alright, this is our conclusion...we need physical and mental health to move and to feel love, and it is precious thing to us!!


*Both of them are actually parts of me, but none of them completely fit my position. I separated my opinion into two by force, but it is interesting to switch the roles.

Open topic 2: What makes "chorus" worth to me

As I mentioned in my self-introduction, I love to sing as on of my hobby. It makes me happy in both ways, singing alone for self-sufficient or practice and singing with others in choir. I will write here particularly latter one, singing with someone other.

Chorus, it has been close to me in my whole life. That is mainly because my mother has been a choir as Soprano since she was in high school student. She love chorus as she joined new chorus team influenced by I joined ICU Glee Club. When I come back to my home, what I hear right after I open the door is her singing voice or song she is practicing. In this way my home is filled with chorus songs. However my younger sister does Shorinji Kenpo少林寺拳法 in her high school, she loves to sing at chorus festival held in her school.^^ I don't know whether my father has been a choir, but he obviously likes to sing.

I was a member of ICUHS's chorus club, and now I am a member of ICU Glee Club.
How does the activity CHORUS catch my family's heart? What makes chorus so fascinate to us?

First, chorus is never organized by one person. At least 2 persons are needed to do this activity. In addition, if it is possible, enough numbers are required in each songs because chorus songs have separated parts. For example, there are songs which have 4 parts or even 16 parts!
When there are too many parts, choir have to sing one own part for themselves which is like ensemble. It helps to practice to have confidence to sing independently and to know how own voice sounds in the chorus.
In the other many cases, people sing one part with other members. Here the effort and technique to fit own voice to others' voice. There are amount time of practice before they are able to mix their voice into one voice(sounds like one person sings).
Plus, there are not only choirs but also conductor and some times pianist. Member of Glee Club "Soprano, Alto, Tenor, Bass, Conductor, Pianist. SATBCP creates songs!."

As I wrote above, choirs spend amount of time staying together to practice. There are human-to-human communication through advicing each other and getting to know each person's character or behavior in both personality and voice. Good relationship among those people creates good harmony, so people naturally get along well in the chorus team.

Second, every songs are organized by amazing lyrics and melodies. Almost all of the cases, these two are done by different persons. For members, what different with when they sing alone is that everyone has each opinion and image they get from the song. They read lyrics and share their images and feelings to discuss. It is fruitful to lead choirs one direction and gather their feeling up. If there are concerts, for example case of ICU Glee, members write motivation sheet to spell what impression they want to give audience or what they want to tell and share through the concert out.
Through steps, little by little members colour their song by themselves directing to their aims. It includes analyze of lyrics, or other efforts members have made.


Chorus have been given me so many precious oppoturnities to meet. Especially, everyone in the Glee Club is kind and talkative, and what is important, care and support each other.
It sometimes, quite few times suffers me when the club is going to do concert and I cannot join the practices for a long time because of my schedule. I experienced it seriously at last concert. Even though, I want to continue to join the club because I love singing and people.
I can state clearly that I love everyone I met through chorus activity!